New start

2011

2010-12-31T06:19:00.000-08:00

2010 has come to the end

hope that all the thing will be good on 2011

hope that i can end up my diploma this year

people who hate or upset me

hope that they can forgive me

maybe my words or my actions

might cause any harm on you

so hope that they can accept my apologize on air

sorry can't apologize face to face

because i don't has the Courage。

I was a disobedient and non-filial children

only make my parent worry about me

so on here i want say sorry to them

and please forgive me.

i won't let them worry about me again.

bye bye 2010, welcome 2011

星月神话

2010-10-17T10:34:00.000-07:00

突然喜欢上金莎的一首歌《星月神话》

真的写出我现在对她的感觉。

或许我们俩真的没有缘在一起了，

像这首歌一样

"我的一生最美好的场景就是遇见你，

尽管呼吸着同一天空的气息

却无法拥抱到你。"

我现在没有什么要求，

只希望她能幸福和快乐。

外公，早日康复

2010-10-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

在家人的口中听到外公生病

今天便去探望了他老人家

到了他的家时看见他坐在用餐的椅子上

双腿红中行动不便

在阿姨们的口中才知道

外公的心脏阻塞（Heart Block）

血液无法流畅

医生告诉他们

外公的年纪大

动手术随时有生命危险

上星期还好好的

但现在说他心脏阻塞

真的有点不相信

明天我外公报告出来了

希望是一个好消息

我觉得自己像一个废物

无法为外公做任何事情

只好在这里默默的向神明起祈祷

希望他能早日康复

blogger i m back =d

2010-09-16T11:55:00.000-07:00

真的很久没有uploading 我的 blog了

因为最近真的没时间和没心情写blog

但今天不知为什么心血来潮

可能是我人缘不好找不到人来分享

只好在blog 里发泄

不知不觉新的semester 已经来到了第七个星期了

总觉得好像刚开学一样

可能是这个sem 有太多假期了吧。

变得有点懒散

没有心情做任何事情包括assignment和Final year project Proposal.

在过三个星期就要Submit Final year project Proposal了

但现在一点头绪都没有

不知道要做什么.

who can help me?

give me some ideal,

what I should do for my final year project?

昨天在hitz fm 听到一首歌(Lady Antebellum的Need You Now)

满有feeling 的

听了有点很想从新谈恋爱，

虽然这首不是什么甜甜蜜蜜的情歌

只是一首单纯想念和需要对方的歌

但越听越有Feeling

真的是一首好听又动人的歌

1 hours save the earth

2010-03-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

Celebrate earth hours just one step you can save the earth . Turn OFF your light tonight 8.30pm till 9.30pm let the earth cool down 1 hours. Thankyou

学习的脚步变得有点缓慢

2010-02-25T23:24:00.000-08:00

新年已过去了一个星期，

但烦恼的事情有增无减。

学习的脚步变得有点缓慢，

让我的思想也变得有点愚蠢，

实我达到我的梦想越来越渺茫。

脚步放慢是为了看清楚周末的事情，

是否真的能看得清楚呢！

努力是否能改变失败的局面？

但不努力注定会失败，

我本身就是最好的例子。

失败到要低声下气的要跟人家借功课来操。

Happy Chinese New Year 2010

2010-02-11T07:27:00.000-08:00

Today is my last day to college bcos next week is Chinese New year Holiday . I also having my EEE2104 test 1 today.The test is no so Difficult but i really dont knw how to do, last night study all is useless.Hope that after CNY i can study well and smart.

Lastly ....12 say Happy Chinese New year to all my Friend and family

真的好烦！

2010-01-21T09:49:00.002-08:00

已经是开学的第三个星期了，

还一直失眠，

一直想着同样的东西，

想到我的头快要爆炸了。

这条路我已经走了大半段

但还是觉得很陌生。

是不是老师迎导我去错的方向，

还是自己没有能力走进老师迎导的方向呢。

今天终于把em field的Tutorial 交上去了，

但这份tutorial 是在图书馆里花费3个小时抄来的。

真的觉得自己没有用，连这样Tutorial 也不会做，

不知道考试的时候会怎样！

真的好烦….真的不想在fail le , fail 的感觉真的不好受。

2009-12-31T05:37:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year ....welcome 2010

One week Holiday

2009-12-29T10:43:00.000-08:00

Just come back yesterday from JB by Sitting bus express. This last three week holiday my sister and I went to JB visit my uncle and aunt. In this ten day my uncle and my aunt have take us to few location nearby JB there are Malacca and Singapore.

Very Thank to their hospitality let us have a nice vacation in this year.

18 December 2009: Johor

This is our first day in JB, we reach there at 6.30pm my uncle and my aunt comes to fetch us at Tun aminah Bus stop and take go to their house having our breakfast. Afternoon, my aunt fetch her son to tuition and bring us to a nearby shopping center have a look. At night we just stay at my aunt house watching television only.

19 December 2009:Malacca

Having a 2day 1 night vacation at the historical city Malacca. This day is my uncle on leave then he has decide go Malacca for a holiday but this is a suddenly planning we try to call the hostel and motel in Malacca but many are fully booking. We one to try our luck then my uncle has decide to drive to Malacca and find the hostel. Our journey start at 6.30pm from JB reachMalacca is about 8.30 pm .Luckily we has found one hostel which left last room, if no we maybe need to sleep at the car. The place to stay have setter, next thing is our dinner. WE have eaten our dinner at the food court near the Dataran Palawan mega mall. When we finish our dinner, we went to the jonker street has walk at this night market and the first day is end like that.

The night of Malacca river

Jonker Street Malacca

Second day morning after finish our breakfast the first we visit is the Hang Li Po’s wall. Next, we went to buy the famous nyonya kuih in Malacca at Jalan Tengkara .The Renpah udang of the shop is very nice. We also visit the St.Pauls’churuch, A famoss, and Christ church at Jalan Kota. I also bought my new shoes at Dataran Palawan mega mall at Jaln kota. Lastly, we having our dinner Lok lok( satay celup)at one of the famous shop at Jalan Ong Kin wee.

Hang Li Po’s wall

St.Pauls’churuch

The is a new nike shoes i have bought

26 December 2009: Singapore

This morning we have decided to sit bas go to Singapore visit this two place vivo city at Harbour Front and Orchord road. First my uncle drive his car to galang patah, Johor then sit the bus to jurong east, Singapore and then we having a MRT to reach the two location .This year went to Singapore didn’t buy anything just have a walk and eating only but also is a nice trip because can see many beautiful Girls at the shopping mall and MRT.

new moon

2009-12-09T07:47:00.001-08:00

This year holiday very sian

no job,

no vacation

and no dating

just stay at house read the book I have bought last week at popular.

The title of the book is “new moon” which write by stephenie meyer .

Now the movie of this novel was show on the cinema,

If you lazy to read this book u can go to the cinema and watch it

在一次遇见

2009-12-03T06:14:00.000-08:00

昨天跟爸妈吃完饭后到Supermarket 买一些东西，

刚好在那个时候想起她，

她就出现在我面前，真的跟她有缘份，

上次在kfc 才看到她，

这次又在这个冷门的超市看到她。

她看起来没什么变到，

不知道她最近怎样？

Start to work

2009-11-24T03:00:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow start to work at village mall

for the computer fair

Tomorrow just the preparation day

the fair actual day is 27 nov 2009 till 29 nov 2009

siao lo need to wake up early

cant same like yesterday sleep at 5.00 am

Fair job

2009-11-22T06:30:00.000-08:00

今天去interview 一份computer fair 的 job

还好他们要我

没有的话这两个月的holiday

我可以在家发霉了

放假一个月多了还没找到工

终于找到一份3天的工来做了

还分配我去容易的department(sale FM modulator)

早熟

2009-11-16T03:34:00.000-08:00

今天无意间在MSN有一个小女孩跑来认识我，

还问了我很多问题，

还问我什么是口交,

真的让我惊讶

13岁的小女孩怎样会这样的名词

我便问她是谁跟她讲的，

她说是她的男友跟她讲的，

她男友还叫她帮他做。

现在的小男生真的是很色

是不是2012 要到了

所以要提早知道这些东西

（现在的中学生很早熟，
13,15岁就知道这些东西。）

路要怎样走下去

2009-11-15T10:09:00.000-08:00

“失败是成功之母”

像我已失败这样多次这句名句好像并不适合用在我的身上

失败

让我麻木，

让我失去了方向感

总觉得自己好像选错了这条路,

一条好象永远无法到达终点的路。

不管我多努力都无法逃离这个迷宫。

想前进又怕迷路，

想放弃但已走进迷宫。

前进又不是，放弃又不是，不知道如何是好！

老天啊，是不是我不够努力，

还是我们没那个料注定要永远失败，

永远抬不起头来面对世人。

连人生两样（爱情和学习）最重要的东西我一样都没有，

做人还有什么意义。

失败的感觉我已经受够了，

我真的不想这样下去，如何才可以逃出这个迷宫！！！

不管是爱情还是学习都没由回头路，

一旦选着就不可以后悔，

还要坦然面对和接受所有的对与错。

Suck job

2009-11-10T08:11:00.000-08:00

2day is my first day work very "eng" bcos just go2 the shop play game only but sian is the boss call me 2moro before come 2 work go new Tesco ask other shop price ....very "tu lan" la the new Tesco is far away form my house suck la need 2 do this Nonsense thing

2009-11-02T22:49:00.000-08:00

The road i go on,

it's not easy

but

i 'll make my way

i can do it

Someday

my dream will come ture

movie time

2009-10-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

Mika Hijii

This is my third day holiday, so sian then zhexian ,hao,yingxing, hum and me plan to queenbay watch movie "Ninja".Ninja is very nice movie and hv a leng lui actresses mika hijii .This movie is nice, u should go to the theaters and watch it .....After that we hv decide having our lunch at 火锅之家 ......when finish our lunch hao , zhexian and hum plan to play cs bcos of me they all cancel the plan, very sorry to them.

爱一直存在

2009-10-30T21:15:00.000-07:00

"爱情的世界是甜蜜的，是开心的，是幸福的

但这种感觉早已在三年前还回给月老了"

已经三年没有进入爱的世界了，

有的想是不是放不下以前的感情呢，

还是根本没有资格进入这个世界里，

或者是因两次的失败

造成我没有勇气去面第三次的失败。

"真的很想谈恋爱

但是没有这种本事。

可能我还不成熟吧，

没人想跟在一起吧。"

真爱几时才要降临在我的身上

一个故事

2009-10-29T11:48:00.000-07:00

第一次用华文在我的blog 写出我的心生

最近很多人在自己的blog写出自己不开心的人生。

我也有一断不开心的故事，全都发生在三年前。

想起三年前曾经被人出卖，被人背叛，和被人放弃。

那个时候我真的很伤心，伤心到哭不出来，但心一直不停的在痛。

被最好的朋友出卖，被最爱的人背叛, 你曾有过吗？

为什么要这样对我，是不是我不好，还是我好欺负。

背叛是我最喜欢在Redbox 点唱的一首歌

First Mission of the day

2009-10-29T06:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is my first day holiday

…went to queen bay for our first mission ……movie hours “surrogates”

with peng ,ww and wong , yik, david tan and ghaw.

This movie has a normal story line,

nothing to comment for this movie just bored.

After that we hving our lunch at kim gary and end our mission for 2day ..”

Everything will be normal after the rain

I should start study now .....!!!!!!

2009-10-23T07:38:00.001-07:00

Study .....study .....until hair become like this

Jia You ....all my friend

2009-10-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

Next week is exam week hope all engineering student will do well in their final exam paper this is the last hope to pass all short sem subject paper gambateh all my friend

Suddenly!!!!!

2009-10-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

NEXT week is our final exam for this short sem

everyone is start to study but me just 12 start on 2day only

Actually,i hv started yesterday but suddenly my hand message ringtone is ring is she again make me no mood to study. Suddenly ...asking me

r she very bad?

i hate her or not?

Don't know what happen to her suddenly asking this question mayb hv love problem.If it is a love problem maybe i cant help her to solve,Sorry.

May the Genie can help u to solve the problem.

Hope that everything will be normal to u ...

So sad the time is running i should start study nw!!!!!!

What should I do to change my life?

2009-10-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday didn’t have any class but also wakeup early just 2 sit the Penang rapid go to Butterworth meet my father and go back my home town .The holiday 4 my brother hv end than 2day he need to go back Kampar n sun pian come Butterworth to fetch me. At the comeback journey from Kampar my father told me that my first brother sem1 CGPA result get 3.6 out of 4.0 ….last month he told me that my second brother SPM try result get 10 FULL A and my sister try spm get 6A .In my mind I have ask myself why I cant do it why my family all is scorers. The news just makes me down and makes my world become smaller. I feel that I am a useless person and stupid guy. Suddenly my mind has become blain and everything has become meaningless to me. Living in this world just waste my parent time and money. What should I do to impure myself and no let my parent down.

She has accepter

2009-10-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

Have a several of the month don’t write the blog really …That day just chat with her on msn and asking where is she nw but she thought that I call her go to inti then he really go there n find me. So sorry to her wasting her time for waiting me. She told me that her friend feel that I have keep distend with her. I really dont knw what word can explan my feeling That day just having a friend talk with her only. Suddenly I ask her what is our relationship friend or lover. But she didn’t answers my question just call me to study hard only. I don’t knows what should I say just tell her …if our relationship is just a friend we should not have the feeling “ai mei”….our relationship have end many year ago we should let go. Now I just one 2be friend with her only but her don’t accept this suggestion. Pass a few day we chat on msn …I feel that she don’t 1 chat with me but at few minute she has reply me that she has accept the suggestion the answer is 2 be friend . Hope that she will has the happiness lift with her bf

A nice holiday at Singapore

2009-09-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

Botak Jones Singapore black pepper chicken

First day we went by bas and sit LRT to our first destination Jurong Point our lunch also having there at subway singapore normal price of set lunch .At the night we went to orchard rd having our lunch at botak jones …I hv a nice black pepper chicken ..the chop is very nice n never eat it before on my life but cost also is very nice $14. The second day end my trip at singapore with Singapore flyer .Singapore flyer is the world largest observation wheel which can see all direction of Singapore and even parts of Malaysia and Indonesia.

Singapore Flyer

We are at the top of the world !!!!

At the top, we can see all direaction of singapore

Where is she now ?

2009-08-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

Hv two months didn't write blog and hv two months didn't fine her suddenly miss her don’t know why I thinking her.At now i should think my exam thing but no her. The course she study 1 hv finish their sem break but at school i didn't see Trace also .....don’t knw how is she nw good or bad ? 12CALL her but no Courage …. Don’t knw hv anything happen to her or not …why she drope the course …. Can anybody tell me where is she now??? i need the answer ,who can answer me the all the question !!!!….hope that good thing will happen at her la

another low mark

2009-06-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

very very sad my egr is the lower mark in the class why every become like that sad u knw died lol dont what happen to me low low low eveything low low low ...........everything hv become meaningless 2 me ........who can help me god please let me knw what should i do ,i just 1 pass my all subject only,i dont1 fail again .

useless boy

2009-06-30T03:23:00.000-07:00

Very sad ..my assigment mark circuit part just get 8 mark only .Last nite my circuit can function but this morning i just do some modifications on my circuit but at that time the circuit become useless lo. Really dont knw this sem i doing what ...!!!! Everything become bad 2 me , i hate myself why become like that .....very disappointed to myself . what should i do?????? i really lost my direaction ....!!!!!!

TANK - 生还者

2009-06-29T23:33:00.000-07:00

夕阳把我脸颊灼伤站在废墟中央
赤裸的脚有些烫
我们弯身避过声浪越过荆棘蛮荒
额头却被草刮伤
远方救护早已离散我们继续流浪
回不去童年摇篮
全靠眼泪流过胸膛滴落饥渴土壤
滋养着荒废的天堂

我们扶着遍体鳞伤世界那麽荒凉
哪里可以疗伤
要把过去亲手陪葬难免要把手弄脏喔

谁不受伤谁的过往不曾有遗憾
谁都背着回忆勇敢的逃亡
天还没暗快乐跳伞我们都该这样
然後骄傲空降生存的地方

第一次被烟火烫伤第一次被弹珠割伤
第一次痛到我哭得不成人样
第一次被朋友中伤第一次被恋人背叛
第一次让寂寞的刺扎我的心脏

尘埃覆盖我们肩上月亮不再明亮
我们凭瞳孔发亮
我们依旧贪玩倔强不怕刻骨的伤
瓦砾中放肆歌唱
头破血流那又怎样伤疤构成图案
挂在胸口当勋章
灵魂要靠自己松绑逃出了手术房
罪与罚写成了乐章

我们扶着遍体鳞伤世界那麽荒凉
哪里可以疗伤
要把过去亲手陪葬难免要把手弄脏喔

谁不受伤谁的过往不曾有遗憾
谁都背着回忆勇敢的逃亡
天还没暗快乐跳伞我们都该这样
然後骄傲空降生存的地方

因为受伤所以欣赏伤口的漂亮
感谢每种创伤逼我们成长
心还没暗相信泪光会给我们力量
然後咬紧牙关患难中生还

tank - 如果我变成回忆

2009-06-22T23:04:00.000-07:00

累了交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发满山牵着你看晚霞落去
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他给你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发满山牵着你看晚霞落去
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他给你

如果我变成回忆最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气不整理心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭承受失去
这样不公平请你整理把我忘记

2009-06-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

Let go is the best choose to me without her i also can live with happiness.

The lower mark in the class

2009-06-15T22:39:00.000-07:00

2day ....ah chan give us our test papar back ... n i get a nice mark in my life and never get it before ..the last num 1, So sad i never get 12.5 mark only , so sad dont knw how to tell my father n really dont 1 fail this subject so despair to myself , i think i m very useless. NW I DONT KNW WHAT TO do knw just knw need to study hard .......

Thank you father

2009-06-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, suddenly 12 go back my hometown sp. At nite I sit my uncle’s car back to sp. Reach my house about 11 something , suddenly my father wakeup asking my mun where is me r me come back a really. So nite a really he should be sleep but he wakeup just 1 2 knw I hv come back or not. When he come 2 my room, I asking him about the renter money for my hostel and he say can pay late or not and I say cant, just a well he come back 2 my room n say nvm the money 2moro give me. When he say the word I should knw that he have face economic problem .Seeing him everyday work till nite even Saturday also need to work just 1 us to study hard get better job in the future and he always tell us “don’t be same like him till nw also need to work.” I feel so sorry to him, give me come to Penang for study but I thinking about gal and say I no hv mood to study. Waste his money doing useless and sucks thing. I m a useless son just know how to waste father money and no same like my brother hardworking n save money. Just 12 say thank you father work so hard to give us everything and help us build our future. You let us knw without education our road will end with nothing but with education our road will end with hope. HE always tell us study hard is no benefit 4 him, is 4 urself. I should let down everything and study hard. Forget to say to him HAPPY FATHER DAY.

where is my mood !!!

2009-06-13T18:30:00.000-07:00

everything hv become useless to me just need my mood back ....back to study n and not thinking of the useless thing ..where can i get my mood back i dont1 fail again ...2day test i knw how to do but make more mistake may course my mark become low, so sad every thing become bad 2 me ...become lazy ,become a useless person in the world .......everything must return to normal.what should i do ......????moooooOOod !!!!

FAil...................

2009-06-08T18:21:00.000-07:00

Sucks lo, 2day Ah chan test is so Difficult section B all dont knw how 2 do .....section A also same 20 question just knw HOW TO DO 7 or 8 question only.....die la this time .....i dont 1 fail this subject la so down la need to study hard la, can no be same like yesterday no mood to study .......

MAN VERY very down ....

2009-06-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

very down la ........2moro hv test but no mood to study ......why why i so down le ....bcos of the world she say "if u find a new gf i will give up"......why she say like that, our story hv end 3 year ago.WHAT IS SHE MEAN ABOUT !! We just a friend only why give up me le.Mayb i think too much la ,but hope she also no think too much la be friend is better then together .Friend 4ever ....

MY Dream Girl........糖果

2009-06-07T18:50:00.000-07:00

我愛黑澀會糖果

The day

2009-06-01T22:09:00.000-07:00

Today is a special day 4 me and her … also a sad day 4 me la but no 4 her la because 2day is her freedom day …is my Breaking up day with her almost 3 year ago .That day I feel like the sky are going rain everything has become useless 2me our love start at form2 but end at my friend birthday party with nothing n she just tell me we are no suitable together. But at the next few week she call a person to tell me 1 to Compound with me but I don’t accept the Request. But now she say don’t 1 be friend with me and don't 1 compound with me but she 1 our relationship maintain at between friend and lover. What is this relationship??? Whatever la …just hope she happy every day .Now seeing her very happy with her bf hope that the Happiness will till 4ever. Hope also her final exam can score high ...high mark.

VISIT brother U……

2009-05-31T23:44:00.000-07:00

2DAY is Sunday normally this day is the time I went back to Penang but 2day have litter bit different my father fetch 2 my brother U (UTAR) at KAMPAR the journey waste above 3 n half hour. Our journey start at 9a.m reaches that above 12.30p.m. Kampar just a normal town with 1 big hypermarket(TESCO) but at the hypermarket can see many beautiful girl can say it is a nice place too la but the food is no nice and non-entertainment…so bored.

UTAR at Kampar

My brother hostel 1 room RM279 per month

The only one Hypermarket in Kamper (TESCO)

She again !!!

2009-05-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

2day i recvd a phone call ...is she.Asking me doing what ..say 12 listen my voice and say 2moro she hv exam .....bcos of she everytime i go2 redbox will sing "BEI PAN". The song same like our love story that why i like to sing it. We hv break up almost 3 year and now she also hv a new BF, hope she will be happy with him ........... and also hope 2moro exam she will pass with colourful result .

midnight at QueenBay.......movie time

2009-05-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

Midnight 00.30AM Eric, jit huat n I went to Queenbay watch movie …."Angle & Demon". At the beginning the movie is so bored but at the end movie become more nicer. Bernini's architectural also show in the movie like Ecstasy of St Theresa and othe. "Angles & demon " is a nice film u can go to theaters and watch it .....

Bernini's architectural

Champion of England 2009

2009-05-16T23:39:00.000-07:00

2day my favorite football club Manchester United hv win their BARCLANS PREMIER LEAGUE with a draw against Ansenal at Old Trafford . This also is the 18th legue title win by United .Hope that next session United will win it again.....

Manchester United Champion of England 2009

Thank for the fetch.

2009-05-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is friday ...same thing i will do is go back to my hometown SP. This week hv litter bit different bcos i sit jiann wei car go to jetty. This is first time i sit he's car . he is a friendly person and thank from the fetch help me early go back to my howntown. Happy to be his friend ..VERY VERY "pai se "call him fetch me to jetty and sorry for waste his time

First time writing blog

2009-05-01T04:13:00.000-07:00

Today is my first time writing blog. So sad .....!!!!! on 29 April 2009 that day is my sem 3 result achieved,but with the bad result. 4 subject i fail 1 the subject is the subject i hate EGR1175, need to pay RM840 ..so expensive and need to study again the thing i know. One more important thing is i need to study with junior "pai se" lo. Why.....why?????